So I am almost to my surgery date...and of course this is consuming my mind, everything I think and do. I have decided to make a lifestyle/behavior change...I admit, at times my tummy is rumbling, and a quick flash of a bagel runs thru my mind, but I go for the sugar free jello. I also may be having these visions because I am day 6 into my liquid diet...*raises eyebrow* but for the most part, I am doing ok. I have decided to hibernate at home...this works best for me, this way I am not tempted by stopping and grabbing a "quick fix". This hasn't been a bad thing either, I feel like I need some time to really adapt to my new life, time to absorb it, and I feel that pretty soon it will just be how it is..I won't have that constant inner struggle with my old habits, french toast- extra syrup for breakfast, and extremely unhealthy snacking. I have started journaling my meals, counting calories. I have never done this before. Also I have really started being active, I didn't join a gym, I've been doing things at home. I've become a yoga addict, and even though I'm not a tiny girl, I'm not half bad at it...and I truly believe that as the weight comes off, it will get even easier for me to hold those poses steady.
I am seeing steady results in my numbers...which I think is good and bad. I am a very habitual, addictive person. I have started weighing myself each day...and I have never in my life until now even owned a scale, and of course being on a liquid diet, you're gonna lose! I worry that 2 weeks from now it won't be like this, right now almost seems easy. I am just worrying too much! I know this. Maybe it's just pre-surgery jitters.
My Dr. prescribed me something to calm my nerves before surgery. I am not normally an anxious type person...but we'll see. He said that a few tears in the pre-op room is not unusual. Watch me be sobbing. :/ And I know this is terrible, but they told me to not have makeup on the morning of. Seriously? I am way too vain for that. Even after my children were born, I was sitting up in bed, makeup scattered all around me. The nurses teased me. C'mon ladies...you know I'm not the only one!
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